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Posted by balik on 2006.01.02 at 21:29
Hello everyone,

I hope all of you had a good new year's eve celebration. I am sure mehmet and baris had a very good time together, and baris should be back in london now. I have unfortuntely no idea about where deger is, or what she is doing. She maybe doesnt have internet. So anyway, when it comes to me, yes i have been in cyprus since december the 11th. I had a good new year's celebration with my mom, some of her friends and ilke and some other people in a small cafe and a live guitar music. Apart from that, i am just waiting to see if i will get an interview with the company that ilke is working for. If i dont get that job, i am going back to the uk. I got tired of changing places that often, but i just need to be patient.

I just wish all of you a good year with lots of happiness and luck. Keep in touch!

Posted by balik on 2005.10.15 at 00:31
something has been wrong with my account, i still can not see any of the journals updated after the 30th..

Posted by balik on 2004.12.18 at 20:13
Uzun zamandir yazamadim arkadaslar ama gercekden bu iki hafta bayagi yogun gecdi. Ingiliz sistemi boyleymis. Sana butun donem kucuk kucuk odevler vermek yerine, donem sonuna submit yapman gereken bir coursework verirmis. Iki coursework iki haftami aldi, insallah hakettigimi alirim.
LondUraya buyuk ihtimal 28`i gibi gideceyim ama ondan evvel tren ve taxi ve benzeri olaylarin 1 ocak`da calip calismadigini figure out yapmam lazim, cunku 3`unde evet tatil osla bile sinavim var..:)
Butun gundur uyuzluk yaparim, ve hala daha uykum var.
Sizi seviyorum arkadaslar.
Gorusmek uzere.

Posted by balik on 2004.12.06 at 02:51
I have got used to players so much that i just cant take anything seriously anymore.
He is so different, so pure, so honest than any of the guys i have ever met in my life.Yes, i do like him and yes, he does like me more than i do him and yes, i am sure it would work out, b/c he is eager to make it work out. He tries hard not to do anything wrong, but he just doesnt think when he talks sometimes and fucks it all up just like last night. I got so furious, and so disappointed that i kicked him out of my room and told him just to stay as friends.
Maybe i should tell you the whole story.
I have a friend called Sakis. He is from Greece and he is such a nice guy. We are all in the same class, and of course he is friends with Marios, too. Well, that guy has been being so close to me. I never wanted to take it in a different way.
After i told Marios that i would give him a chance, he told me that he wants to go talk to Sakis first about this just to clear everything out and not to hurt him in case he likes me, too. Finally, he did talk to him, but instead of telling him that we started dating, he just told him that he likes me and plans to talk to me. And they made this fucking deal : whoever decides to talk to me first is gonna do it first.
Of course i didnt like this. My reaction was just like: Am i something that you are bidding on? Well, he just didnt want to hurt him, because he is so nice,he says
Last night while we were sitting in my room, all of a sudden he told me that maybe we should stop just because of him. I felt so hurt, and so disappointed and told him yes we should stop and thats my final decision.
Nothing feels right.
He has been trying to talk to me for the whole day, but i am disappeared for the time being, because i dont wanna see him.
He textmessaged me and told me that he went to Sakis today, and told him everything, but i just didnt respond back. It is too late, i think.
He told me that he hates himself for whatever happened last night and i hate him too.
I hate him for messing up with my life. I hate him for not being brave.

Last night, i cried not because i told him to be just friends, but because i realized that nobody has ever worked out for me.

Posted by balik on 2004.11.26 at 20:43
Thanksgiving is over without having you around. Last night after i talked to you online, i got invited to a thanksgiving dinner by Marios`s flatmate who had an american friend. Since the american girl didnt have a place on campus, she wanted to have the dinner on their kitchen. Marios was being such a weirdo as usual. He stayed in his room until his best greek friend came over, and didnt talk at all, and kept saying that he just didnt go to sleep last night. I tired to cheer him up but he just kept critizing me for making fun of him in puvlic and annoying the hell out of me. Well ,it definitely didnt feel like thanksgiving, but i was so happy that i got to listen to someone with an american accent again even though the girl was just a typical american. (i know it is not good to generalize).

Today, i had a four hour practice test in operational research and its contents class. I think i did ok for a practice test who is not even going to be graded. The teacher just told us to take it seriously so that we can get ready for the actual test. We didnt learn anything in this class but just worked on two random case studies on which we had group presentations, In the test we dont know what to expect, it is again gonna be a random case study with no right answer, and we are expected to find a logical way to analyze the problem and find the best option. My head still hurts because of thinking.

So, today i got annoyed with Marios again, and decided not to pay attention to him until he realizes that he is stupid. He is a typical Cypriot guy who thinks that he is cool, and everything he makes is perfect, and it is only the people around him who does wrong not him at all. I am good at making him aplogize but i cant stand his stupid comments sometimes. I am being harsh on him now, just because i am maybe mad, but i am tired of going through the same phases with him over and over again. If we were dating, we would have broken up long time ago, and i wouldnt date him anyway.

Mehmet nasil post yapabilirim resim?

Posted by balik on 2004.10.12 at 08:28
aglamak isterim...cok guzel bir cd bu...bugun ne dusunurdum bilirmin, sizin gibi arkadaslarim oldugu icin cok sansli oldugumu....insanin gendini anlayabilecek birilerini bulmasi cok zordur...biz bunu basardik ne guzel....yani sizinnan haberlesmek bana gercekden cok buyuk bir guc verir..
cok tessekkur ederim guzel hediyen icin...
ben sarki download yapmiyorum artik, onumdeki bu 12 ay boyuncada yapacagimi hic zannetmem...cd`da satin almakdan vazgecdim, first of all burda bir cd shop`a girdigimde cogu sarkiciyi bilmem, bu mazeret deil tabii ama hersey cok pahali asiri pahali...bugun alisverise gittim 30 pound harcadim bu demekdir ki 90 milyon...dusundukce krize girerim, ustune birda dasiyacan aldiklarini diye eziyet ceken...otobusde direk ne zaman bitecek bu cile diye dusunurdum, ne zaman "huzun" pesimi birakacak diye sormak daha mantikli..hayat bir kosusdurmacadir gider, buyuduk sonra derdimiz daha da cok cogalir sanki...
ama rahatim, gercekden cok rahatim...bunlar isin tuzu karabiberi..
aldigim bir kutu ferrero rocher`i simdi oturup yeyceyim....
gorusmek uzere..:)